September 2010

Time Flies...it's September and so many things have happened. Kyle turned 15, Gracie is now 6, and it's almost Andy's turn to be 9. I have started a Marital Therapy class this semester. I had to withdraw from a summer class because our Volvo finally died. It took time to get another car, and I did not have the transportation to Nashville. I started a job, it pays minimal, but it's part time and fits around my schedule. I will have to switch around come January, because I will need to get into a Saturday cycle to pick up the classes I need to graduate. I am still struggling to stay focused, but for one I have managed to stay off any drugs, and eliminate alcohol from my life. I have to do an assignment that has scared the shit out of me, but I am getting closer to it, and will overcome my fear next week. These are the hardest classes yet. It's actually putting what we learn into practice, which requires being able to explain and understand what to do, not just recite or store in memory. Finally, I have to actually use what I am learning. This is a first for me in many new ways. It's kind of exciting, but then I also experience some doubt at times. I have also been volunteering with CASA, and am not sure if I will pick up a new case or not when this one ends. I am seeking to volunteer at Domestic Violence Center here, and it's one hour a week, assisting with facilitating with a group. I would like to be albe to say that I have had the experience with group work. We will see how that goes. I will be ready for my practicum next Summer, and that will be a positive experience, hopefully leads me right into a job. I anticipate that I will greaduate next Fall 2011. This is the one goal I will focus on from now until next year, as I put away my sewing supplies, because I often have multiple task and goals that split me up, and then nothing really feels completed. I want to still get into making bags and possibly totes, dog collars, and chains, and continue sewing but right now I have to get this degree behind me. I was able to sew up quite a few things over this summer, and that it's self was rewarding. I cleaned out my old scraps, and reduced my fabrics, and dust is beginning to settle on the machines. I have my clothing selling at Sugarees in town. I sold 1 item. I decided not to pursue that becuase it detracts my attention on my education and working toward my degree. Perhaps, it's was always my way of procrastinating, and really doing what I was really called to learn to do. Change isn't easy, and I'm learning that facing our fears can be the greatest thigs that one can do, and this confidence we gain from our small sucesses enables us to have the courage to handle larger responsibilities. I just need to change my focus on school, and doing well with that first, before pursuing other endeavors. Hopefully, when that is complete, I will then be able to direct my attention on other goals and dreams. Washington is my final destination. I hope that will become a reality.